This is my thank you to you few

Very few people chose to enter the narrow path that leads to Becky. It's a scary road. A dark road. Many false entrances and many exits. Hidden pathways and scary noises. Often times there are detour signs leading the way back to where you came in. And when you finally do approach "Becky" often times there is a "No Vacancy" sign. There are a few have still chose to enter in, reguardless of my protests and my cold shoulder. These few people have burrowed deep into my chest and there they will forever remain. These few soliders have endured my breakdowns....my hermit like existence. They've seen me in times where I didn't even like to see myself. They've dealt with my silence with patience and always welcomed me home with arms wide enough for me to fall into. They've loved me back into reality and always defended my honor against myself. They've chosen to love the one who has resisted their love and who have recieved nothing in return. To these few people I say "Thank you". To these few I say "I'm sorry for falling short on my part." To these few people I say "I love you deeper than I could ever express or want to say".

To my mother....my true north.

My husband....my peace.

To my beloved Laney....my constant.

To these few people I say "I will let you down again. I will fall. I will turn away in hurt. Forgive me now for those times." To these few people I say you have walked by me through the hardest and deepest parts of me and never wavered. I may have felt alone but I've never been alone. I may have looked around seen only my shadow but that's because you were my light. I may have hurt you in the process through it all but you have hidden your pain for my healing. I am not worthy of you or what you offer to me daily. Words can't possibly be enough to say what it is my heart feels for you. But please know that what I feel for you has no explanations. There are no reasons nor boundaries. You have proven yourself time and time again. I hope to be your safe place to fall when life is pulling you down. I may be small in stature but my inner strength could tear down the tigers in your life. I wont let you go. I need you too much. I love you too much. You are all my heart wishes and hopes for. You are beautiful beyond description and I'm truly blessed to have each of you in my heart and in my life.

To you few I say "Thank you....You are why I am here"